I feel like an asshole

I feel like an asshole

Something’s been bothering me.  I gotta get it off my chest.

I’m 27 and I feel like I’m a bad person. The majority of the time that I’m going to the store, getting groceries, getting gas, riding in an Uber, etc., I’m not committing the mental effort to acknowledge that those people, those new people that I’m in that moment with, are unique beautiful creatures that are deserving of attention.

It sucks so much. I feel horrible. I’m going to the drive-thru, grabbing some food on the way home and there’s this person right there that’s like “Here’s your food. Give me money, here’s your food.”

I say, “Hey, here’s my money. Give me my food.” And in my head I’m thinking I gotta go home I got laundry to do, I got dishes to clean, I got work.

This is multiple times a day. So many people that we interact with day in and day out and we don’t even give them a second thought when, in reality, they’re all so deserving of at least a modicum of attention. Actual, focused, determined, deliberate attention in that moment.

It’s the least we can do. Every single one of us is a a bundle of information and we’ve all got a multitude of experiences that have led us to where we are in in that moment. It kills me.

We should be both leveraging those interactions and providing value, even if only for a second.

Those people that you interact with, that I interact with, they have gone through different things that you and I have no idea about. They’ve got more experience in more areas than we do. That’s the first thing. We should be taking advantage of that by actually caring about them as a human being and absorbing what they have to offer.

Secondly, on the flip side of that, you (and I) are unique and have something to offer them that they’ve never experienced and we’re not going to find out what that is if we don’t actually care enough to talk to them or at least offer a little bit of deliberate attention, to acknowledge that they are a human being with a story.

I’m so bad at articulating the complicated thoughts that run through my head but I’m working on it. That’s why I’m forcing myself to do these blog posts, videos, etc. I really hope the can grasp where I’m coming from with this and maybe identify with it a little bit.

Once I made this realization (which is just recently, it took me twenty seven years), I’m making a conscious, deliberate effort every day to enrich the experiences of my interactions with people no matter how temporary those interactions might be.

I would encourage you to do the same. I think that the world would be a better place if we could all just commit a little bit more effort on that front.

That’s it! Let me know your thoughts in the comments below.

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